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I don’t know how long it’d take for me to be alright again. Maybe tomorrow, maybe the day after.
I wonder why the stars look so dull or perhaps my eyes are at fault, I must’ve been mistaken those times I thought they were bright.
I have always thought I am stronger than this, but apparently I [...]

I was feeling low this morning and I prayed hard to have strength to get through the day.
A ray of hope came via a youtube link sent by April who simply said it was a nice song… and it is a really apt song, which I dedicate to my heart.
Heart – Britney Spears
Heart, I know [...]

I have no idea how I managed to get through the last couple of months. Things seemed to have blurred since May… and I’ve been sober through it all yet have no recollection of those days that rolled on by.
Yet I remember those hands that prevented me from slumping into a heap, those faces that [...]

I never expect myself to be this weak… but it’s almost 8 weeks and counting.
I tell myself over and over that I’m ok, that everything will be alright. It’s all good. The most important thing I tell myself every day is that you’re happier this way… so I should be happy too.
What Hurts The Most [...]

The title says it all…
The night our souls collided, your name was forever etched on the walls of my heart.
Always Be My Baby – Mariah Carey/David Cook
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I’m letting you fly
Cause I know [...]

I thought the rivers had run dry. Yet the tears welling up proved otherwise.
Just when I thought I am ready to take a forward stride, the first step in walking away, I get washed up in memories of you and I falter. The memory of you still brings a smile to my face.
You’re so far [...]

The soul found the halo its been seeking
Drawn by its illuminating brillance
Unfettered and spellbound
It leaped to grasp the light
Alas the radiance dimmed and faded
Plunging day to night
In sorrow the soul recedes
To its resting place
Waving goodbye as reality wakes

I think there is a huge problem when I’m not able to ogle and look at men any more.
Well, I mean I can still appreciate their looks and everything. But that’s about it… no secret fantasies, just a split second of admiration.
Someone is so deeply ingrained in my mind that inevitably I’ll just decide that [...]