A ray of hope came via a youtube link sent by April who simply said it was a nice song… and it is a really apt song, which I dedicate to my heart.

Heart – Britney Spears

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you
I’m sorry for the things I’ve put you through
Before you start to break on me or ask for sympathy
I need to make you see

O, heart, I’m not sure it’s been long enough
To say that what I feel is really love
There’s just one way to learn, sometimes we’ll get hurt
And right now it’s our turn

Give it time, help me through
Heart, we can do this together
You’re my strength, you’re my soul
I need you now more than ever

Heart, all the hurt will soon be gone
If you’ll, if you’ll just keep on being strong
You will always be my friend, so keep on hangin’ in
And we’ll find love again

Give it time (Give it time), help me through (Help me)
Heart, we can do this together
You’re my strength (You’re my strength), you’re my soul
I need you now more than ever

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you
I’m sorry for the things I’ve put you through
Please don’t you break on me, I need to make you see
It wasn’t meant to be

Cause you will always be my friend, so keep on hangin’ in
And we’ll find love again

I tell myself over and over that I’m ok, that everything will be alright. It’s all good. The most important thing I tell myself every day is that you’re happier this way… so I should be happy too.

What Hurts The Most – Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ‘em out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin’ on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up, gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin’ so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
(To say)
And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

Not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do, ooo

The night our souls collided, your name was forever etched on the walls of my heart.

Always Be My Baby – Mariah Carey/David Cook

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I’m letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no!

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m a part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby

I ain’t gonna cry no
And I won’t beg you to stay
If you’re determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you’ll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

I know that you’ll be back boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
I know that, you’ll be right back, baby
Oh, baby believe me it’s only a matter of time
Of time

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on (you and I will always be)
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

You and I will always be
No way you’re never gonna shake me
No way you’re never gonna shake me
You and I will always be

How sad, how true.

When I Dream About You – Stevie B.

There was a time in my life
When I opened my eyes and there you were,
You were more than a dream,
I could reach out a touch you,
Boy Girl that was long ago.
There are something’s that I guess I’ll never know,
When you love someone
You got to learn to let them go.

When I dream about you,
That’s when everything’s all right,
You’re in my arms
Here next to me, forever.
When I dream about you,
Boy Girl you never go away,
Just close my eyes
Wait for my dreams
Cause I still love, loving you.

How can I get you to see
That I’m falling apart
Since you’ve been gone,
I can never be sure
I could ever let go
Your love is much too strong,
There are something’s that I guess I’ll never know,
When you love someone
You got to learn to let them go.

When I dream about you,
That’s when everything’s all right,
You’re in my arms
Here next to me, forever.
When I dream about you,
Boy Girl you never go away,
Just close my eyes
Wait for my dreams,
Cause I still love, loving you.

There are something’s that I guess I’ll never know,
When you love someone
You got to learn to let them go.

When I dream about you,
That’s when everything’s all right,
You’re in my arms
Here next to me, forever.
When I dream about you
Boy Girl you never go away,
Just close my eyes
Wait for my dreams,
Cause I still love, loving you.

Kiss The Rain – Yiruma (Lyrics & Singing by Hienie)

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I’m woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I’ve always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can’t even look me straight in my eyes

I’ve never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren’t you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I’ve always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can’t even look me straight in my eyes

I don’t know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can’t do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I’ll always love you

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I’m woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

So why am I still here in the rain…

Happy Ending – Mika

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can’t get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ every day

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o’clock in the morning, something’s on my mind
Can’t get no rest; keep walkin’ around
If I pretend that nothin’ ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ every day

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]

I feel as if I’m wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

If I Could – 1927

If I could paint
I’d paint a portrait of you
The sunlight in your eyes a masterpiece of truth
And a single tear like a silent prayer
That’s shining so much brighter than a diamond ever dared
If I could do anything at all, I’d do it for you

If I could write
I’d write a book for you
A tale of hidden treasures with an I.O.U
And a million words couldn’t say a thing
That won’t be said in three words
Where love’s the central theme
If I could do anything at all, I’d do it for you

Darling can’t you see
What you mean to me
Anything that I can do I’ll do it for you
And darling don’t you know
Just how far I’d go
Anything that I can do, I’d do it for you

Sometimes I feel so second-rate
Seems loving you was my greatest mistake
I know I’m insecure
And love don’t keep score
But I wish I could give you more

If I could play
I’d play up a storm for you
A raging sea of passion that you never knew
Every whispered sound would touch your heart
And maybe for a moment I could be your favourite star
If I could do anything at all
If I could, I’d give you more
If I could do anything at all…..I’d do it for you

Darling can’t you see
What you mean to me
Anything that I can do I’ll do it for you
And darling don’t you know
Just how far I’d go
Anything that I can do, I’d do it for you

And darling can’t you see
You mean the world to me
Anything that I can do I’ll do it for you
And darling don’t you know
Just how far I’d go
Anything that I can do I’ll do it, I’ll do it for you
I’ll do it, do it for you

I wonder why…

“Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in
I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There’s only truth
Breathe in breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our bodies soar
Our feet don’t even touch the floor”

- Insatiable, Darren Hayes