After a long absence from the clubbing scene, I decided to venture out for Deep Dish with Eug and gang only to come face to face with him…

Infusion’s Meant To Be was spinning at Winebar when I saw him in a distance… Many hours, a couple of drinks and smses later, I was at members with him and his friends. He was like I remembered, he even smelt the same. He still confused me, at times so cold and distant, at others like how we used to be.

It’s funny but I dreamt of him a couple of nights before we met again…

I don’t understand… how he seemingly made it like it’s my fault for leaving, for getting into a relationship.

Wasn’t that what he wanted? For me to find someone who could treat me the way he never could? To provide me with the emotional aspect he couldn’t provide?

He may have left the radio and tv medium but he still continues to haunt me, in the written form… Mr Oon.

It’s good to have a collection of emotional songs… A song from years back that I listened to, is still applicable right now…

What If – Kate WInslet

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I’d stayed
If you’d tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we’ll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I’d never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I’d stayed
If you’d tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we’ll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

‘Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
‘Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I’d stayed
If you’d tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we’ll never know
We’ll never know