I’m suddenly reminded of the reason I have been procrastinating and stalling for time, just to avoid getting my own web site done. All due to a horrible trait I can’t get rid off: my indecisiveness.

I’ve been wanting to create my personal site since I was first introduced to the internet, at 16. It was so many years ago when creating personal (and ugly) homepages were the rage. Yeap, those were the days of obscenely horrid tiled picture backgrounds, mismatched colours and bright neon coloured fonts that could blind you.

So many years have passed since then and thankfully web designs have gotten better. Although I still see the outdated designs (read description above) from some who suffer from severe colour coordination problems including web programmers no less! Ack! Whoever thinks web developers make naturally good web designers ought to be shot dead! *shudders in disgust*

But I digress yet again? Notice I have a bad habit of doing that? Where was I? Oh…

I continued standing by the sidelines watching others created a web identity for themselves while I have nothing to call my own. Sometimes pangs of envy hit me when I see a really well designed site. But still I procrastinated and refrained from creating my very own site.

Don’t be mistaken for I have equipped myself with adequate skills to create websites. Hell, I’ve done projects in school and I’ve freelanced. Yet while it was rather effortless to create for others, I simply couldn’t create for myself! I wouldn’t dispute the fact that I tend to veer towards the lazy and indecisive side… it didn’t help that I get inspired by the various layouts I see while getting lost in cyberspace. Even if I’d drawn a draft of what I intend to do, it would soon be replaced by a new inspiration. I could never reconcile the differing ideas I have. I soon tire of even trying. I gave up.

Which brings me to the present: After a rather long lapse from web designing, I have to relearn everything almost from scratch. I have lost touched with so many programmes, even those I only had basic knowledge of. Have I mentioned that I never had the patience to learn HTML? Instead I dabbled and relied on WYSIWYG platforms.

Anyhow it seems almost cliche say that even though I can run, I can never hide… from web designing. Nor can I safely say that I am no longer the indecisive person that I am. On the contrary, I am still inflicted with this dreadful trait!

As mentioned in an earlier entry, I’m designing my own template. Guess what? I’m going crazy! I can’t decide how I would want it to look, which colours to use… in a nutshell, I cannot decide! And believe it or not, I’m finally learning HTML! Still, I’m coping well. Phew…

So finally I took a step forward. I reckon soon many steps (or sites) would follow… which is good because it will get in line with the upcoming project plans I have with Stef.

It’s time to stop procrastinating. I can’t run nor hide forever and it’s time I take the plunge and create a web presence.

So, Cyberworld… Here I come!