So finally I’ve gotten myself a blog. After eons of procrastination I’ve finally jumped on the blogging bandwagon… like millions around the world.

So what sets me apart? I dunno? I’ll just be myself I guess… and let my random thoughts speak. Finally penning them on paper, or in this case – online.

Whatever it is, this is mine. Demented thoughts or not…

Don’t try to judge me or think you know me. And if it’s trouble you seek… do yourself and me a favour… buzz off! I?m too tired to pick a bone with you.

Ready? Here we go?*takes a deep breath and plunges*

I was looking forward to this weekend since Monday! I craved sleep and all I wanted was a well-rested weekend, especially when I got bogged down by flu (no, not Sars). All I wanted was to sleep and recover but now that seemed like a tall order. I couldn’t rest! My house was a war zone! Chaos reigned!

Kids, kids everywhere… big ones, small ones, noisy ones, violent ones, boys, girls… screaming, shouting, crying… and of course their parents. It was madness.

Periods of tranquil broken in by cries or shouts of kids or their screaming, yelling parents. It drove me mad, insane. I nearly lost my mind. It didn’t help that I was feeling down…

I needed peace and quiet. That was all I sought.

And it didn’t help too that they baked chicken again on Saturday night. I love chicken. I really do? but it’s nauseating seeing the same brown fowl sitting on the dining table each Saturday night, sometimes even on a Sunday for the past month. Okay, maybe I exaggerated, but it’s been couple of weeks at least. Someone please pass me a plastic bag before I heave?

Anyway I felt really horrid today. The weather on Saturday was horrendously humid and I succumbed to the temptation of sleeping with the air-conditioning on and I had a really freaky dream last night. But I digress…

It was torturous sitting through 4 hours of tuition with three stubborn brats who simply refused to do their revision. I wonder how they can be so relaxed when their exams are around the corner. I was one nervous wreak each time the exams came round. Then again, I always studied at the last minute so that may explain why. *roll eyes*

I managed to come home to some peace and quiet but before I could thank my lucky star. The brat pack came. Argh! So once again, chaos reigns. With a pounding head I went and managed to grab some naptime… but awoke again to some massive noise pollution. I couldn’t take it anymore… I broke down.

If this chaos continue to reign
If relatives continue to overstay their welcome
I’ll be on a one way street to a mental breakdown
I wish they would all disappear from the face
Of this earth
Leave me alone in my solitude
That is all I seek
With their ever lingering presence
I’d always feel like a stranger
In my own home.

I feel myself sinking deeper… into the black hole that is all in my mind. But for now? I shall
seek solace in my sleep…